I suffer from PTSD from childhood and episodic major depressive disorder, and anxiety disorder also stemming from childhood traumas. For years, I've powered through them as best I could, until I couldn't.
For quite some time I've been quite interested in various high-functioning disorders in what they now call the "autism spectrum," and particularly in the behaviors that used to be known as Asperger's syndrome.
Our mental health system sucks. Addiction/dual diagnosis is all the rage at the moment.
How many of you define yourselves, who you are, what you are, based upon your diagnoses and traumas?
I dont. Its just a part of me.
Past or present?
Well.....PTSD doesnt really go away. But it becomes less the beast that is it and can be managed. Its part of me.....but certaintly not my entire identity. If that makes sense.
I donít think I do... but it definitely has impacted my life and is a part of who I am.
The scariest part for me is that you canít control the triggers. They have lessened though, but when life gets really stressful itís hard.
For me, and you know a bit about the aftermath of what I went through, I always swore it didnít define me, was part of me but not who I was. It wasnít till years later when I had put all the negative choices, poor self image, and self destructive behaviour behind me that I realized it was still influencing my choices. Not till I truly put it behind me could I say I was free of it. Free to the extent that I never think of those events and times nor live in fear. Had this thread not come along I doubt those times would have come to mind.