For me, and you know a bit about the aftermath of what I went through, I always swore it didnít define me, was part of me but not who I was. It wasnít till years later when I had put all the negative choices, poor self image, and self destructive behaviour behind me that I realized it was still influencing my choices. Not till I truly put it behind me could I say I was free of it. Free to the extent that I never think of those events and times nor live in fear. Had this thread not come along I doubt those times would have come to mind.
I used to be literally enslaved by triggers. I could barely sit in a restuarant. I have fled from grocery store check out lines and movie theatres were my kryptonite. The sudden rage and terror. Oh boy. It would just wash over me. I can kinda feel it coming now if im really stressed or super emotional and i start getting really worked up. Its like an aura, how people describe how they know they gonna siezure. And i have great coping skills....i havent had to bolt out of a public place in years and its not nearly as intense.
My symptoms got a lot better after I did the shamanic soul recovery.
Well.....PTSD doesnt really go away. But it becomes less the beast that is it and can be managed. Its part of me.....but certaintly not my entire identity. If that makes sense.
You can actually change the way your brain works. Unlearn, relearn, et.
You are one of the obvious sufferers in this forum. As I mentioned earlier, we can spot our kind from light years away. Ditto Dove. I don't know Oliver so I haven't observed his posting.Do you find it comforting to know there are many like you in this cyber space?
How many of you define yourselves, who you are, what you are, based upon your diagnoses and traumas?
Well done. I'm told that only about 10% of depressives are able to control their illness.But with the progress in medical technology and medication in the area of mental illness, that number is surely rising.
These forums aren't the best place to expose one's belly.Yes, self-disclosure and community-seeking are steps on the path to healing and the removal of stigma, but only in venues that are supportive, caring, and understanding (and I've learned that the hard way these last eight years). Places populated by flamers and trolls are unlikely to be comforting to those who are suffering. The various internet mosh pits and stomping grounds are not widely known for their tenderness in the face of emotional vulnerability.I will not be making the same mistake twice. And that's a sign of good mental health.
It bemuses me that psychiatric support is so hard to access in the US unless you're flush with $$$$.In Australia, psychiatry is available through the national health system. Most meds are also government subsidised.
Some of the best support ive gotten has been from people ive met on troll boards. We are all kinda messed up here.